following

reposting this to get the dern things back in order.......

So I've been debating about doing this for months.  What's my motivation, do people pay attention to this sort of thing, do "I" pay attention to this sort of thing, is it about my ego or, I don't know, just what is it?  So I put the "followers" gadget on my sidebar.  There aren't that many official followers, fair number of readers, just a few following.  But bottom line, I really do like the idea that I've got followers!  And I really really appreciate the readers and love comments.  I mean really, why else would I do this?

I'm thinking this little shift is tied into two of the books I'm reading right now, actually re-reading ... Do the Work and War of Art.  One of the sections is about being a "pro" at what you do.  So I've been making my living with making jewelry for a good while, but I'm seeing places where I'm kind of lazy or not fully engaged.  It's all tied into that "following my gaze" thing and seeing where it lands.  I'm starting to see a lot of things more honestly and really making an effort to get fully congruent.  The process involves lots of deep breaths 'cause basically, it's a real challenge getting my extremely introverted self to step up and out and go for it.

And another thing about congruence or the lack thereof  ... there's that sneaking dairy thing I mentioned yesterday.  What's that about?  Why the sneaky nonsense?  Why do I feel like I have to sneak anything?  Ah, and then there's my other little secret ... I'm a fast food junky.  When I get off the green juice wagon I head straight for Taco Bell and a grilled stuft chicken burrito.

So, in the interest of staying honest and getting congruent and stepping out of my comfort zone and being more of a pro, I'm going to plug in that little gadget and see how I like the looks of it.  And after having to throw out a ton of slimy greens yesterday, I'm getting back on the green juice, no dairy wagon.

We'll see how long it lasts this time.
I mean really ... If not now, when?

green blessings - kvk

pondering a couple of "r" words

The first "r" word that's had a hold of me is resistance.  I've been considering it in the context of fear ... what am I afraid of, what do I resist, what makes my breath catch, what makes me want to curl into a small wretched ball?  I'm trying to see the big things and, with just as much determination, looking for the small ones.  I've bought two books by Steven Pressfield about resistance and doing the work it takes to push through that insidious barrier.  Insidious feels like a very strong word, but at this point in my journey, it feels like the right word.  I'm feeling a delicious resolve ... another good "r" word.  You know me and my visuals ... the one that comes to mind right now is, I've been slogging through thick mud for an eternity, I've just had a bit of a rest and am re-engaging with renewed vigor, anticipation and enthusiasm.  The mud seems to be thinning and I'm making progress, moving forward, excitement building.

The other big "r" word I just came across this morning and haven't had time to explore - reconciliation.  Turns out there's an astrological thing happening right now that I read about here, "Towards Reconciliation: Taurus New Moon."  What hit me straight away, for me right now at this moment in time, it's not about reconciliation with another person, but with a part of myself.  I want to re-read this blog post and do some more pondering.   

What I'm also noticing right this very moment, I've got a slew of things to do today and I'm watching the clock as I write this and thinking, "girl, you better get busy doing what you're s'posed to be doing!"  Thing is, this felt important.  So I'm just going with it.

Must say, I do like starting my day with good words to ponder.  Kind of puts a theme to the day, a bit more purpose added to my intentions.

Do you have words that drive or motivate you?
Do you have recurring themes in your lives?
Are there words that feel enormously important, but are like mercury, almost impossible to hold onto?
What's popping up on your radar? 
What feels absolutely necessary - right now?

blessings - kvk 

p.s.  the digital edition of Pressfield's new book, Do the Work is FREE on Amazon  - how cool is that?